unpredictable

2009-05-13T06:39:00.000-07:00

All the lack of sleep is making me a downright bitch :O

2009-05-09T01:25:00.000-07:00

Caught on the Korean fever yet?
not only has it swept through Asia's pop culture, sillies got that fever too! :O

love them since forever. jaejoong!

korean version of craig david's Insomnia

And my new fav big bang ((:
i know it's T.O.P kayy mai. dunno what i was thinking at that time.

and i want that phone!

TOTALLY ADDICTED:O

it's sleepover at hash's hse ytd (:
the house's BIG and it's so FREAKING DARK at night.
plus it's raining super heavily at around 4 plus, with thunder and lightning and all that. i was so freaked out hahaha.

but still, it's great to see the sillies after so long!
i've uploaded the pics. so efficient right!
i've just realised facebook got this superb uploading system which only took a few mins to upload eveything!
omg i feel so stupid that i always uploaded photos 5 by 5 by 5. damn.

2008-12-31T09:05:00.000-08:00

shanghai!
not really fun for me cos too much scenery too little shopping. /:
but i dunno why i still managed to buy loads of things haha.
i must control my spending :O
weather's around the same as korea but there's more sun here (:

we watched a really fantastic show here. a tix cost around 100 bucks for 1.5 hrs.

shanghai's famous for it's beautiful night scenery.

one of the 5* restaurants we ate at. it's an unmoving ship but i got dizzy haha :O

our handsome driver who drives us to everywhere we go (:

a train faster then Taiwan's bullet train. travelling at 430-431km/h at it's fastest. i couldnt even stop my hand from shaking haha.

Sun Yat Sen's wife's statue.

first time i see monks playing bball, and on a machine some more lol.

Esplanade's distant cousin Es Pla Nade. okay lame. pls ignore me.

the place selling the best xiao long bao in Shanghai. 16 pcs for approx 2 sing dollars. super cheap.

Romance of the 3 kingdoms show. the one in Taiwan was much nicer (: the liu bei here looks a bit weird haha.

long body shorty legs

long legs, i like. haha.

look at the long line of cars :O

the time tunnel.

tallest tower in asia, second in the world ( or is it forth? i forgot :O)

behind is the pagoda the white snake goddess was captured in. (i think)

china's famous Xi Hu, known to be the most beautiful lake, and it's 4 times of singapore omg.

next stop, japan! hehheh.

2008-12-15T04:32:00.000-08:00

just came back from chingay and i'm o-m-g-so-tired.
it's like 9am to 6pm. and today's all about first aid theory.
it's so f-ing boring and my legs and ass are so pain from sitting on the floor i wanna kill myself alr.
i nearly cried in happiness when i reached home. haha.
we still have to take the first aid mcq test and cpr thing tml ):
like i dont have enough of tt alr.

i hate people who's so freaking annoying.
this stupid girl who thinks so highly of herself.
hello i didnt even ask for your opinion, or opinions, in this case.
heck i didnt even ask for your presence and you just have to grace me with it.
no pls thank you just go away will you?
i hate your voice and your face and your oh-im-so-gd-and-i-have-to-tell-everyone-tt attitude.
i dont wanna know about your almighty self so just shut up and get lost.
but i shall be nice to you. for now.
though i feel like slapping your face.

i so look forward to tomorrow. 9am-6pm first aid course again. and 6.45pm-9pm leaders feedback session thing. oh god.

i shall go mug first aid now.

2008-12-09T07:00:00.000-08:00

i just watched twilight. ytd.
and it's kinda boring la. maybe cos its content's exactly the same as the book-.-
but anw i'll still go watch it in theatres. hehheh cos robert pattinson makes a hot vampire and i can't see him clearly on com screen.

was supposed to stay over at ecp tml w/ massss.
but she got a job at the bar alr. rahh.
and why the bar allows smoking i dont understand ehh. and the place is so freaking hot my god.
i'm sweating like shit alr. how can pple drink beer and talk there for so long haha.

tml is a sian day, thu okay, fri sian, and the weeekends also. shit it still got chingay ahhh.
i really really miss damien.
and i hate rainy days.

2008-11-25T03:21:00.000-08:00

It's 3:22 now but i dont feel like sleeping. sigh.
it's the end of the yr, so i shall think back. though im feeling slightly woozy doozy now. haha.

07/08. these two yrs just passed in a flash. like that.
and i dont even know what i had done, or did not do.
i really am a failure at 16/17 yrs old. and i'll not let myself be one from now on.
hopefully, 2009 will be a goodbye to my past and i'll change for the better.

seriously, i dont know what'd gone into me these past two years.
like the living dead, like those in owen's poems.
just letting everyday past by me without caring, without doing anything.
in the past, i'm not even like that.
a 7 years old (since pri sch) to 16, i'd feel sad, or at least a tinge of remorse when i didnt do well, or failed in anything.
but these 2 yrs (or mostly last yr), if i fail, i just let it be. omg i dont know what i had become.
tt's really not me. i think i suddenly lose track of direction or something. i would not have let myself do so badly. even if i dont care about results, i would have at least cared abt face, abt reputation, abt how people think of me.
but last year, i just dont care. my god. idk. dont know what happened.
i just let it be.
and let myself sink so deeply that i nearly do not have the chance to rise to the surface again.
and the thing is that,
i know that i could have done it,
i myself know that i have the ability to do it,
if i just put in a teeny tin-ny bit of effort
unlike some people who really really might need more time.
and that's what hurts the most now.

of course, consequences of my actions, of my stupidity.
still trying hard to handle it.
though i told myself it's alright, laugh to myself that it's nothing. pretend to others that it's ok,
but still,
seeing the success of everyone else is painful.
i know i could be like them,
but i didnt even give myself the opportunity to begin with.

this'll be the first, and the last time i break down. i really hate being weak. urghhh.
from now on, i'll be strong.
brave enough to face the future ahead and really not give myself any chance to regret anymore.

2008-11-20T06:36:00.000-08:00

THIS POST IS SPECIALLY FOR MAS !
this is chace crawford, the one i told you who's much hotter than zac efron (in my opinion only, people pls dont go bombarding me):

see i'm so nice. i even found the side view for you. it's a sin not to know him kayy. so thank god (or thank me) your sin is removed, or whatever you call it.

front view:

close-up:

side view

and this is his sister. i can only say it's in the genes

and this is ed westwick, another lead in gossip girl. i shall lend you if i can find it in my room!

CC+EW=even the sun admits that he/she is not as hot. ( i dunno the sun's gender, i think the sun's a male?)

2008-09-27T08:27:00.000-07:00

yay i just bought twilight, new moon and eclipse todayy! by stephenie meyer of course.
soooo happpyy. i've been wanting to buy them since dunno when.
heard they're really good. thought i know im really slow. the book's supposed to be a best seller in 2005, and it's 2 yrs later when i heard of them./:

i shall tell you all if it's worth a read after i read kay. though i bet it is.

anw buy from borders la. it's cheaper there. it's 3 bks for the price of 2, with the cheapest book free of course. so gooddd right.

twilight's now becoming a movie! with robert pattinson as male lead(: drools. though only in gin&ger's eyes there's only oliver wood. tsk.
okay la MAYBE he's hotter.

enough abt that. anw i'm going to china during dec. really excited!(: i've been wanting to go there years ago. shall buy lots of cheap vcds back to watch. mwahaha. though i really really ( i've run out vocab) hate the timing. it's 20 something dec. ): so lateee.

and i cant believe i forgot what's a metaphor during GP. OMIGOD. i'm a LIT student. someone kill me. i bet i'm the only lit student who got that question wrong. okay randomnesssss.

SOMEONE LEND ME GOSSIP GIRL TO WATCH! i've been looking for it high and low and up and down. haha i know so bimbo right. but recently i'm becoming more interested in chick lit. haha must be 'cos of the stupid gp paper. and i wonder what's lad lit. nv even see before. okay randomness again. i wanna watch all the eng series too. been watching too much tw and korea drama until i'm sick of them now (maybe not if they come up with a really good one). must get back to the english side!

oh ya oh ya! cherry and i watched mamma mia! ytd. it's not bad, a joyous movie which'll make you smile. though the songs are not that fresh cos they're all are from abba (the movie's called mamma mia for a reason). and pierce brosnan get's hotter as he grows older.(:

looking forward to meeting deb and jas on tue/wed. cant believe this is the first time we're gg out tgt though we're a clique. hahaha. and we nv ever took a pic tgt!

2008-09-13T07:05:00.000-07:00

omg i just found out that the 'devastatingly inhumanly beautiful' edward in Twilight's played by cedric diggory a.k.a robert pattinson. see i told u both that he's hot. and in your(s) eyes there's only oliver wood.

and this is just meant for the twins
(:

2008-08-18T11:09:00.000-07:00

you make me cry.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

warning: post bubbling with emotions ahead.

lest you think i dont care.HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SEETKX!
thanks for being the bestest friend everr.
i love you many many many.
thanks for putting up with my nonsense alll the timee and my many many moodswings and occasional hyper moments.
thanks for always taking time out to meet up even though your schedule is packed with tuitions,and what nots.
thanks for all the fun times at shopping malls and ogling at eyecandies with me.
thanks for making me smile/laugh at your smses.thanks for always listening to my neverending rant-ons abt life.
thanks for being one of the very few holes where i can bury all the secrets and stories and not worrying you'll dig it all up.
thanks for tolerating my eccentricity and accepting me for who i am.
thanks for just being a girl with whom i can be me.
so thanks,for being you.
i am so glad i went cgs and joined rc and became friends with you.if you dont know it yet, im grateful for having a friend like you.
and yes,im still alive. who'll kidnap me in the first place.
maybe i can plot a self-kidnap, and get you to pay my ransom.(kidding)
meet up soon please.and can we have chocolate fondue when we celebrate your birthday. (:p)
i'll call you the first thing after i get someone to pay my bills.
meanwhile,keep me posted.
here's to more days of halving our sorrows,multiplying our joy and more.
love,
mas.

i love you too.
this post'll always be in my heart.

2008-08-13T21:46:00.000-07:00

OMG I'M HAVING POST BDAY BLUES.
I DUN WANNA BE EIGHTEEN. AHHH.

thank you sy and tg(:

2008-07-03T04:02:00.001-07:00

i love econs cos i love suee(:
and i hate math.

2008-06-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

happy daddy's day!(:
went ah mah's house today. buffet yumyum. okay not that yummy actually.
only the sushi's nice i guess.

and germaine and gina didnt come! urghh.
who the hell goes jamming today la. lol.
but luckily got channel u's wei2 wo3 du2 zun1 finals today. so i'm not that bored.
and it's quite a good thing they aint here so they wont complain about idiotic chinese shows every time chinese words come out of the speaker. haha.
and superband's coming up. okay even i dont appreciate this superband show. though i nv watch it. haha/:
wonder what they'll say about it. roar.

this show's quite stupid actually. actually many local programmes are. i only watch cos there are 2 eyecandies in there. haha.
and mediacorp seems to always only think of making $$. 60 cents per call/:
overseas talent programmes dont even charge or charge that much laa. true talent search wont.
anyway i'm so so so so glad that yuanshuai won(: yayys. his english name is kinda hot too.
icaru. haha.

i'm dreading the day school reopens. ahhh.
and i really want to go to taiwan./:

2008-06-13T05:02:00.000-07:00

JAM HSIAO is loveee(:
album out 16th june.
support him support him!:)

2008-06-10T10:44:00.000-07:00

unknowingly, more then half of the holidays had passed.
and mid years are coming. soon. like second day sch reopens.
i'm so so so dead.
i wanna dieeee now.
shyte.

no, i must not let history repeat itself.

2008-05-01T07:36:00.000-07:00

sports day ytd):
the sad face is there cos i think it's a complete waste of time and energy, UNLESS you are the one competing. lol.

we end sch at 12.30, and the event starts at 2.30-3. two hours for dunno what/: what a waste of time.
and we weren't allowed to get out of sch at first. until after centuries, some clever person went to inform the in-charge (who is my relative, mr seet) and we were allowed out finally (with our i/cs confiscated of course)
then the 3 of us went parkway and roam about aimlessly. bleh.

and when we got back, we got scolded by you-know-who. and he threatened to turn us upside down. (cos we were late. we dont even know what time it starts at actually)
and when we wanted to go to library to get our bags, some fucking retarded you-know-what shouted at us and told us to go in front of her. then she started scolding us and ask what we're trying to do.

what's your problem? i want to change okay. it's so freaking hot. and are you dense or what? obviously we're trying to go get our things right. dunno how many yrs old already still as dense. i dont care whether she's pmsing or what. i'm already hot and tired and angry at how guai i am for not finding alternate ways of getting out.

i was so (to the power of infinity)pissed off the whole day. tsk her. i'm gg to roll my eyes at her everytime i see her. psst.

and at 5.30, we were so bored. and still the gate's not open. 2 teachers sat there somemore. lol. and there's a stream of students sitting in front of the gate, waiting for it to open.
i know the event's not ended yet. but what's the pt of making students stay when they are not even at the event? the rules and teachers' thinking are really rigid. bahh.

then at 6pm (!), a parent who came to fetch her child was so pissed off that she could not drive out (cos the teachers insist that we must stay till the event ended) (STUPID RIGHT! OMIGOD!)
she then got out of her car, looking at us (the poor students who are denied of the right to go home) and muttering "poor CHILDREN waiting to go home"
woah the word "children" sure have a great effect. then she went to tell off the teachers. haha. and everyone turned to watch the show.
she then walked back to her car angrily.
we were allowed to get out after that! heehee. and eveyone waved a thank you-cum-gdbye to her.

what a cool mum! thank you auntie(: (though you wont read this.)
you dont know how many students' lives you've changed.
pity my mum wont dare to do that. (she only complains abt me!/:)
i'll strive to be like that kind lady in future (IF i ever got married and have kids)

2008-03-24T01:09:00.000-07:00

YAYY! the hot eyecandy from kungfu dunk is in this new taiwan series called ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni. direct translation shld be fated to love you. you can watch it every mon on youtube. (cos channel u is so slow in airing dramas)

arghhh i didnt do anything useful this week (okay, it's last week already) despite having to go sch for half the wk only! feeling so useless and lousy now.
literally holiday for half the week okay. so shiok. cos we only got normal lessons on mon and tue. then arts day on wed. full day on thu. and then good friday.

anw arts day was boringgg. in the morn, we all got to sit in the sweltering heat in the parade square to watch some weird performance. it's really really HOT TO THE POWER OF ONE TRILLION. and the soccer guys in front covered their heads. (cos they are all bald. haha.) i dunno if it's supposed to be some tricks or magic or what. and the performer kept saying some weird jokes which were not funny at all. (maybe it's too hot and everyone's pissed off already)

and the henna was awful): it's ugly and cost 3 bucks lor! west grand boulevard (is that how u spell it?) was not bad though. the main singer's cute(: and we managed to take a pic with him(: but it's at the end of the day! i wouldnt have waited for it if there's no training in the aft.

okay back to now.
i dont even know what hw is there. roar.
and i'll be super sleepy later. i mean in the morn. and first period is lit. which means interaction with the class and teacher. which i dont like! kinda regret taking lit. cos we have to discuss stuff in class. and i dont talk in class (except taking to classmates about useless stuff which got nth to do with the lesson)

the day just started and i'm already feeling the awful monday blues.
it's not that i hate sch.
it's because i didnt do any work!): and i gotta take the chem test cos i didnt take it last wk!):

somebody save me!

2008-03-02T07:27:00.000-08:00

heyo.

MAS see i update(: and where the hell is ur tag board?
why are u darn lucky anw? another mr cool huh. hah.

anw germaine gina and meee went to watch L last tue. i know it's kinda weird to watch movies on tue. i practically dragged myself to tm after mock nafa. dead tired. but we wanted to watch it for the longest time. turns out that it sucks. compared to death note 1 and 2. what a waste of time. haha. it's actually not that bad la. but i thought it wld be really really really gd u know.

slam dunk's okay okay. at least there's 2 hot eyecandies(: haha. (and neither of them is jay please) sweeney todd's really good. johnny depp's hot!(: but all the blood's damn gross. no wonder the show's M18.
and jumper's okay too, not that gd, but there's pretty rachel bilson(: sweeney todd's still the best i think.

2007-12-21T23:11:00.000-08:00

in taiwan now. and i'm super duper pissed off.
these 5 days here's such a waste of time.
most things we see are mountains and trees. and one destination to another is more than 5 hrs. like what the hell?
and after a super long bumpy road trip, we could only stay at the place for about an hr.
who goes to the night market for an hr right. right?!

that's not all. the driver dont even know where he's going. PLEASE. u r fetching tourists u know. omg. and he often have to stop and ask around. who dunno their own country? esp when the routes are already fixed?
last 2 trips the last 2 yrs to korea and hk r not really good also. i dun understand why they still wanna choose APPLE HOLIDAY. this company sucks. it SUCK SUCK SUCK. DONT CHOOSE IT PLS. there's actually so many things in taiwan. but cos of the arrangments all that, it's a huge disappointment.

and that's not all. if i could, i wld not go overseas with them again. i'm pissed off at you-know-who and you-know-who. always finding excuses. dun wanna mention anything else cos it's dangerous. lol. I WANNA GO HOLIDAY WITH CHERRY CHONG NEXT YR! ANYWHERE ALSO CAN(: CANT WAIT MAN:D

okay i'm pissed off at a lot of things. now i'm done ranting. blogging helps release steam(: i shall go bathe now.

2007-11-01T13:43:00.000-07:00

blogging is a bit of a waste of time right.
oh wells.
and now, when i'm in the mood of changing my blogskin, that website's down. cant view any previews at all. arghh whatever.

i dunno what makes me go for og outing ytd.
oh ya. OUTING. with only 5 peeps. haha.
& the thing is tt i got pw op today at 7.45am la.
am i crazy or stupid.
and i think my op ytd was better. sighs.

we went to watch movie somemore. laughs. so much for op practice.
the movie's quite nice but i forgot the title. no. actually i didnt even know what's the title to begin with.
but i know it's either ball something or something ball. or issit goal something or something goal.
aiyah anyway the movie's something to do with goals and balls. lol.

anw op's over now. yayys.
i think bobby's isnt. wahaha.

left with I&R. sian. i dunno what to write. tt's why i'm blogging.
oh anw thank u syeyuet and nicholas and xm for sending ur I&R soft copy(: though i still dunno what to do. laughs.

pw is dumb. what a waste of time.
oh wells. it's over.
but again, there's still I&R. okay, by tml it'll be over.
so byebye.:D

2007-07-31T06:01:00.000-07:00

went back to crescent last sat for speech dayy<3333
woah finally felt at home man. but it's over too soon le. i've been waiting for the whole of july and it's over in a flash):
what a pity, didnt manage to meet leonard...or mr koh la. whatever. cos there's so many guests can.): when mrs lee announced leonard had replaced gary tan as VP. can hear many 'yuck' from the sec 4'06 batch laa. which made me damn damn pissed off.
tt's so unfair to him. just because gary tan's a great VP doesnt mean tt leonard's not gd what. in fact, leonard's greater kk. i'm sure he'll bring crescent to greater heights, like how he groomed the FDs and now the YMDs. and become a principal in the future like gary. u all dont even know who's leonard or what he's like la. so what gives u the right to criticize (ehh i dunno how to spell this) him. didnt u hear all the juniors love him a lot? crescent's super lucky to have him as VP laa. what a pity tt i graduate le-.-

anw after tt met up with squadmates((((((: i mean sillies la.
haha it's the same. ate at pizza hut. superr fulllll. and mas kept saying she's 3 mths pregnant. LOL. took silly pictures too (of course la, we are sillies leh!) and got chased out of the archade. dunno which silly one suggested gg in when the notice clearly writes no uniform. haha.
ndp after tt. my contacts broke during speech day which made me half blind. i think it's the best rehearsal we ever had. with the timings all tt all right!(:
met up with massieee again after tt and ate at long johns. dunno how many laps i gotta swim to burn the calos off laa.
and mas saw the guy whose hair look like paul twohill again. she claimed we met him before at macs at j8. on saturday night too!
TT'S FREAKYY k. and tt guy smiles somemore-.-

2007-07-29T18:09:00.000-07:00

http://www.imagestation.com/album/review.html?id=2089254926
by wx<33

2007-07-29T07:51:00.000-07:00

2007-07-29T07:41:00.000-07:00

2007-07-02T16:13:00.000-07:00

shall blog about last wk. haha.

i'll just skip the mid yrs part. cos it's a pain to recall them. i'm SOOOOOOO DEADDDD OMGGGG! didnt study for mid yrs AT ALL. FOR EVERYTHING. OMIGOD. i really really really regret it. ahhhh. i'm like turning into the person i was in sec sch. nv study. SHIT CAN. but i PROMISE i'LL DEFINITELY WORK VERY HARD FOR PROMOS. i swear.

ndp rehearsal on sat. gonna die of heat then. wore that obs shirt w collar somemore cos i didnt know the costume's supposed to be sleeveless/:
met up with nic, yufei and syeyuet after tt cos they went to watch it.
haha they were looking out for me in the RED CROSS CONTINGENT can! LAUGHOUTLOUD. i graduated from rc over 1 yr ago la. haha.
yufei got so many scandals lor. got whisper, sofy, laurier, newfeel... and of cos, NICHOLAS CHAN. hah. kept touching each other. tsktsk.
and we met hanbin in marina sq! <333
LOL. mas, did u go to esplanade to watch fireworks? cos the machine was spoilt tt day! haha. so no fireworks.

MILK RUN O7 yesterdayy.
it's so damn crowded there la. there's like thouands of pple. and i nv brought the most impt stuff! the number tag all tt. rahh. but the run really didnt feel like 4km la. seemed very short liddat. and I SAW MY EX EYECANDY! ( and i must emphasize on the word EX) haha. last yr milk run he's my eyecandy. haha. exactly on the same day! cant believe a yr passed by so quickly. last yr we were still taking pics of him. and even asked zj's fren to take. hah. now not so cute le la. cut hair and wear specs. .but still quite cute la. hahaha.
went out to eat after tt. all the way to tampines);

everyone go watch why why love. it's sucha cute show! haha.

2007-06-16T03:15:00.000-07:00

ahh nv update for ages. gotta update so wx and mai wont keep magging. hahaha.
but the thing is, i got nth to say laa.

the hols were uneventful so far. last wk of hols le. zomg. i wasted 3 wks dunno doing what. now i'm so dead for mid yrs. ah SHIT. really SHIT IT. i'm so so so dead can. and i'm like gg back to sec sch days. slack and slack and nv study till the last min. maybe i shld have just gone to poly. bahh.

ndp sigh. on sats. and i gotta give up tuition cos of it. cant believe i gave up lessons cos of ndp. rahh. i'm crazyy. haha.
and there's og outing nxt fri. dunno if i shld go la. think i'll spend nxt wk mugging le. sian. hope i wont fail too badly. sobs.

okay i think i'm nt realy making sense. cos it's 3.22AM now. bahh. hahaha. oh and i found out jh's secret. hah. u better be careful. lol.
ok he wont read this anw. lol.

2007-05-09T15:39:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED JANINE AND PHAMELIA:DD

econs test sucks like shit! and can u believe it's 5% of promos?! oh man):
i stayed up the whole of last night studying questions 1, 2 and 3 k. and jay chou picked question 4! RAHH. and i nv even read the question of question 4. crapped my way thru))): all rights, i shall do better for all the other econs test to make up for this one.

shall blog about the MEMORABLE MONDAY, which left my legs aching like hell cos i didn't stretch properly(i think) and cos of the stupid long jumps.
had NAFA. then monday training.
ran like about +/- 7km!(according to some other resources cos i didnt go measure, but i dunno if it's reliable). and do loads of pumpings/crunches along the way.
woah i felt like i've joined another uniform group. no worse than a uni grp. hahaha. and i thought that ug is tough le. but this is woah SHIOK man. not. but can feel a strong sense of achievement when we go back sch. the snrs and even teachers ran damn fast can. sigh. no la i think cos i'm slow tt's why. haha.
poor janine had to run so much on her bday. lol.

zl they all gave pham a nike sb (sports bra in case u dunno. reminds me of one of mas's numerous eyecandies. LOL.)so nice can. hee. and jan took video of her when she opens her present in the canteen. wahaha.
dunno why she's so embarassed and kept hiding it. hahaha/:
then we dunk her in the koi pond. rahh. POOR FISHES. they must have had a shock.
and she kept struggling! damn difficult to carry can. and the dist's so far. so we WHEELBARROW-ed her. (thank god there's 2 first aiders)and she kept kicking. wl the most difficult casualty(eh not really casualty la) i've ever carried. and zl suggest we use FIREMAN'S SLEEVE (mai's most pro at it!;DD) hahahahahaaa.
then pham said she just jumped into the pond herself cos she know's there's no way she could get away. (of course la. with all the kayak pple, and esp limin the strong there)haha. but 2 guy snrs pushed her into the pond. rahh. so funny can. then we all ran away. and poor pham fell cos she chased after us. scare me can, i thought she knocked her head and became unconscious.

phy spa tml. siannn.

2007-04-27T21:32:00.000-07:00

lmfao. this is so freaking hilarious can.
i can't believe this la. dunno who anyhow spread this can. LOL.

let me fen xi for everyone.
read the comments properly, from there, one can infer that:

(1)f is someone my friend don't like. but NOT ME. so think, how would my friend know him? does my friend even know tt HIM?
(2)all the comments are crap. and super SARCASTIC. take lit! lol.
even though "u dont hv to tke lit to noe we're crapping -.-" "
(3)and last but not least, he's not in my grp. hahaha.

wrong assumption. pls try again. muahaha.

2007-04-23T08:03:00.000-07:00

ran 5 rounds today during pe.
lol. and the tcher asked us to divide the timing by 5 and mutiply by six to see how we'll do for NAFA. hahaha. so it'll be 11.06/5 x2=13.272min
-___-
if kayak liddat then die la.

i thought there's be diminishing energy lor. lol.

so tired today. dunno why. got sore throat+flu+cough. cant breathe when running lor. and dom ran past for his final round when i'm still at the fourth. ))):

oh gawds. NAFA's next week. i'm so dead man. esp for pull ups.

oh man, it's only MONDAY today. ahhhh. first day of the wk only):

2007-04-19T07:40:00.000-07:00

WE GOT HALF DAY TODAY!!!(:
so happy(:
cos vj got first for girls and third for guys in track and field. and first in wushu for both guys and girls. yayys.

ate at bugis with the girls. damn full sia. then the guys came after lunch at parkway and met at muji. i was wondering how come there's so many victorians suddenly la. then realise they're my classmates. LOL
-___-''' blur as always. went walk walk around smemore. it's hard to shop with a bunch of guys around laa. haha. cos they'll wait outside the shop while we shop. wahaha. feel so bad la.

went shop shop with X, i mean renzhi at bugis street after that. xm went home. rachh went parkway. while the guys sat somewhere to talk. hahaha. wahh saiwhy looked really sick. take care k. though u prolly'll not read this. LOL.

dunno how much i spent la. must save $$$ le. 2 shirts 1 shorts 2 pairs earrings. haha. and ren got a new bag! and some other stuff of course. heehee(: shopping queens sia. haha.

didnt watch the football match))): AJC VS VJC laa. haha. and missed the chance to meet bobby. it's late and too far to go back sch la. by the time go back the match'll prolly end le. LOL. oh obviously VJ won! hahaha.
3-0 yayys. hope everyone do well. then got half days off again!(: hee.

gotta do gp now. or else'll get zero for the compre):

2007-04-18T09:16:00.000-07:00

was released at 12.45 todayy.
oh wows i went for kayak training today!
so proud of myself man.
wanted to go home to do all the tutorials and pi de lor.
did 4.2km around bedok reservoir. and my timing's damn sucky.
i seriously got no stamina):
and i kept capsizing today. sobs.))))))):
well which means i gotta train harder.
wahh super tired now man.

oh wells. gotta do my pi final, gp & math liao.
siannnn.
ahh next mon's aj sports day. i wanna go i wanna go i wanna go(:
go jaguar(: and go cheethia too(:
oh and go cougar too since it's the house my ex-class's in now. LOL.

2007-04-15T00:19:00.000-07:00

the seniors always told us tt we must
TREASURE OUR TIME IN CRESCENT
IT'S THE BEST PLACE EVER.
then they'll sigh and said that we dun understand yet.

WE REALLY DON'T.

i didnt realise the truth in their statement.
until it's too late.

when i myself become a senior.

2007-04-14T23:46:00.000-07:00

went for music fest ytd.
so didnt go for crezawards))):
boo. i wanna go back. and play see saw too!
crescent got see saw now. haha.
for the physics equilibrium thingy.
SERIOUSLY -.-''' lol.
i miss crescent i miss crescent i miss crescent.
and i miss my SQUADMATES even more)):
can i go back to a girls' sch? girls' sch seriously rock more than a mixed one. hahaha.

heard tt the contestants suck. like, DUH. how gd can they be la. every yr also the same de. hahaha. mas said seeing PAUL TWOHILL CATWALK (didnt even sing) is worth more than 8 bucks liao. -.-'''

anw music fest was quite nice. as in the performance laaa.
but the organising is ...
can sneak in somemore. LOL.
i love camel. teehee.
anw, i dun mean the animal who carries u in the desert or the brand of nuts ok. haha.
and the ics dance rock too!(:

I REALLY GOT NO FATE WITH CREZAWARDS> ALL 4 YRS I DIDNT GO ONCE! GRADUATE ALREADY ALSO CANT MAKE IT):
I SWEAR I'LL GO NEXT YR. SERIOUSLY. HAHA.

2007-04-14T00:07:00.000-07:00

paul twohill at crezawards by wx(: i just feel like uploading this. LOL. dunno why mas's soo crazy over him. haha.

2007-04-06T09:44:00.000-07:00

damn pissed off just now.
my dad changed the lock of the door without telling me): and nv give me the new key):
and then, i was locked out of the house can.
nearly climbed in thru the windows laa. LOL.
i rushed home specially to MUG okies. haha no la duh. to watch tv.

went shopping by myself(:
oh that's not sad la. i LURVE shopping alone man. HAHAHA.

choir audis tml.
i realli got no voice le la. so hoarse can. HUSKY HUSKY. sexy voice eh. LAUGHOUTLOUD. i shall try floorball also:DD if still can join.
feeling lazy nowadays. dun feel like gg ndp again tml-.-
i wanna stay at home and sleep! wahaha.

2007-04-04T10:04:00.000-07:00

ponned today.
cos i'll be screwed if i turn up.
didn't do the freaking econs homework laa.
and was dead tired from doing PI.
my PI's really full of shit la.
dunno what i was writing also-_-

yays tml's the last day of sch for this wk;DDD
but got math makeup till 6.30)):

2007-04-03T10:25:00.000-07:00

LOL.
the guy: hello. is this kaixian?
me: ehh ya.
the guy: oh calling from VE group.this is a local enterprise group. u r shortlisted for a part time job here. eh free lance de.
me: (huh, i'm caught for SHOPLIFTING? oh he said shortlisted) oh okayyy. how u know me?
the guy: oh MAYBE through recommendations from schools, friends or surveys. are you schooling now? which sch?
me: (duh!) victoria jc.
the guy: year one or two?
me: (so weird) erm year 1. where and what time is it?
the guy: you can come to Enos MRT station on sunday. I'll meet you there. the office is just 5 minutes from the MRT. then m manager will brief you on what to do.
me: so what's this job about? as in do what?
the guy: oh some paperwork and stuff. we don't have enough people now. ya.
me: ohhh.
the guy: so what time can you come?
me: erm can i tell you later.
the guy: okay. i give you my personal number then. ********.
me: okay.
the guy: then i wait for your message. see you.
me: okayyyy.

haha. i'm not so stupid to go alone can. even if it's true.
anyways work what la. i got problems with even catching up with my school work lor. dun wanna retain k-_-
anyways anyone heard of the VE group? tell me okies. i'm curious(:

2007-04-02T08:19:00.000-07:00

why is it that human beings always want to treasure things that they could not have anymore? cos absence makes the heart grows fonder?

i miss aj):
no, not the place, but the people there.
my dear dear classmates, 23/07.
especially minglu, siewboon, rebecca, kailin.
my gangxD
I LOVE U ALL LOADS. the friendship kind of course.
i miss the times we r tgt, i can talk abt anything and everything with u guys. it's so difficult to find such friends. i'm so fortunate to be able to know u all, even if the time we had tgt was so short, only 2 mths.
and of course, all the other classmates.
kinda regret not talking to ya all much.
and it's only when i left, and when we meet each other again, then we treasure each other so much.

i know, there's no time to regret.

it doesnt matter that i can't see u. what it matters is that i know u are always there.

2007-03-30T23:52:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to NICHOLAS,
happy birthday to you!:DD

2007-03-28T09:03:00.000-07:00

it's vj arts day today!<3
damn slack laaa. there's ONLY pw and make up lectures today, whick ended at bout 7.
everythin' was free! henna, balloons all tt, unlike crescent's aad):
went for choir audi during phy lecture. and gotta go on sat for second audi. haha can't believe i'm gg for choir. hopefully can get in la. and hopefully sop. i can't sing alto to save my life. okies tt's kinda kua zhang lah.
how ah how ah. i wanna join HnF lehhs. but all clash la): why must it be on wed?):

fri's sports day. lessons end at 12pm. as if it's of any diff la. might as well end at the usual time. kinda sian. cos sch ends later than usual. 6.15pm! gawds, such a waste of time. and there's traka og outing that day lor. dunno whether still can go or nt-_-

tml's stephy's BIG DAY.
not wedding la. she's giving her speech(:
we'll all support ya hon. dun worry and all da best!xDDD
and remember ur clock! hahas.

not looking forward to tml. gotta pass up dunno what hw, which i obviously have not done.

2007-03-26T08:55:00.000-07:00

damn tired today.
stayed up late to finish tt stupid gp essay. and i think what i wrote was out of point anyway.
but hack lahh.
still dunno what cca to join.
harmonica? choir? kayak? HnF? netball?
i think i'll join choir if i can get in. wth.
i'm like, contradicting myself la. i swear i wont join choir again, but now...sighh.

i feel like taking lit leh.
oh man. but max is 12AUs. hahaha.
and i cant cope also.
so wasted la. 4 yrs of lit):

2007-03-19T07:01:00.000-07:00

vj is so urgggghhhh.
they changed my class la!
from 07S63 to 07S65.
i love 63 a lot k.
just when i'm about to settle down, they do this to me!
and the reason is that 65 got not enough girls??! WTH.

okok 65's very very nice also la.
but so few girls. 7 ONLY!!!
there's like 16++ guys lor. DOUBLE.

SAW JASMINE TODAY!
and GERALDINE!
so long nv see jas le i still recognise her((:
my sec 2 partner who went hc international after sec 2):
oh i rmb how i know geraldine le la.
it's a first aid duty at some ulu scary place with tombs! in sec 2.
and both of us were kinda scared shitless. LOL.

i dunno what cca to join leh.
so i shall join everything.
shall go netball tml(:

2007-03-19T04:43:00.001-07:00

it's the last episode of hana kimi today.
but the tv's switched off.
ending's so bad tt watching one time is enough torture for my eyes
okayokay i'm being too kuazhang here.
but seriously the ending cmi la.
everything so nice then the ending liddat?!
they better have a part 2 lor.
even th comic's ending's nicer.

2007-03-08T09:56:00.000-08:00

i really really miss aj.
my classmates of 23/07, my og mates of cheethia-traka, my fellow ogfs.
i will forever rmb the fun we had, the joy we shared tgt.
with u all, i'm never lonely, never unhappy.
it's just been 3 days, but it felt like yrs since we've parted.
it's only when we lost what we have, then we'll start to miss it.
like me.
like other pple who still remained in aj.

sorry to all my ogf mates that i gotta leave u all.
all the best for orientation 2.
hope the newcomers will feel the joy tt we feel in O'1

in life, there's always partings.
i hate them, but i'll accept them too.
i guess my stay in aj had been fruitful.
i got no regrets there.

aj=mugger school=no life?
i dun think so.

my og mates will forever be my og mates.
my classmates will forever remain my classmates.
just like the sillies. we'll forever be one.

2007-03-05T22:47:00.000-08:00

support brainer's blog k.
it's new!
and i helped a little to complete it too(: haha.

finally finished watching all 15 episodes of hana kimi.
the ending's super super SUCKY.
it sucks it sucks it sucks):
better have a sequel to it lor.
or else, i really dunno what to say-_-

today's last day of sch.
kinda the last day.
the whole day was damn slack la.
we took photos during GP lesson.
purposely take slowly somemore until the whole lesson's over. haha.
& then the whole class planned to pon PE lesson.
and then suddenly they announced tt PE's cancelled.
think the teachers knew tt no one'll go. LOL.
went to J8. AGAIN.
for the XXXXX time this yr.
i'm sick of it le.
miss my orchard lor):
but now town seems so far-_-

posting results out tml.
i'm damn damn scared can.
and dunno whether we're still gg diana's hse to play mahjong ornot.

2007-03-02T21:06:00.000-08:00

YOU SUCK.
friends? LaughOutLoudd.
do me a favour, fuck off.

2007-02-20T00:20:00.000-08:00

back from gin&ger's hse.
I OFFICIALLY CONCLUDE TT GIRL'S SCH PPLE ARE UNLUCKY THIS NEW YR.
gin&ger n me dunno lost how much lor.
DANG.

got test when sch reopens. SIAN/:
dun care laa. i'm ponning.

EVERYONE GO WATCH THE SHOW ON CHANNEL U TML @ 1PM K.
i forgot what's da name/:

2007-02-18T12:16:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CNY everyone!(:

went ah mah's hse today.
steamboat, gamble... and all the usual stuff.
i'm unlucky today laa.
kept on losing $$$.
tskkk.
nvm nvm i shall win it back tml!
WAHAHA watch out!

i wanna go fall out boy concert.
but i rather save e money to buy something else laa.
unless ginger wants to sponsor me??((:
then i dun mind(:

can't wait for hana kimi episode 14!

2007-02-15T20:32:00.000-08:00

sf sent me this. omigosh it's so funneh. LOL. MUST READ OKAY?! no offense though.

Light Bulb Jokes about all Junior College in Singapore.

Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One to design the new bulb, one to manufacture and test it out, one to write a proposal on it and one to market it.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.

Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They can study without light.

Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They’re too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs.

Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They’ll rather use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a light bulb is in the first place and to demonstrate how to change the light bulb. (So how do you think they’re able to change it for ACJC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They’ll prefer it to be darker. (Hmmmm?*raises eye-brows* )

Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they made their macho male physics teacher cry.

Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Would they even bother?

Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Huh, what litebarb?

Q: How many PJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Heck the light bulb lah, the principal would do something about the
rightbarbs. Let’s do 300 jumping jacks for not wearing the proper
school attire.

Q: How many MJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are too busy trying to get promoted.

Q: How many IJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are Innovians. They’ll find ways out of the dark.

Q: Who wrote all this?
A: A TJCian.

Q: How many TJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They think they are already very bright.

LMAO!

2007-02-14T23:49:00.000-08:00

mean machine, i like it like that: help me print the jae thing kk.
MAS IS REALLY DUMB. lolx: send me testi first. lol.
mean machine, i like it like that: on mon i give u testi.
mean machine, i like it like that: testicles.
MAS IS REALLY DUMB. lolx: without cork?
mean machine, i like it like that: it's cock laaa u ass.
MAS IS REALLY DUMB. lolx: oh ya! spell wrongly la.
mean machine, i like it like that: i rip ur bf's testicles then u know.

LMAO! anw mas, u still owe me a testiMONIAL k. lol.

went out with joan, sy, tg, yf, nic todayy.
to town. AGAIN.
not that i'm complaining k. town's my third home. lol.
and i'm NOT the latest.
though we were supposed to meet at 1pm and i reach at 3 plus.
tsktsk. BANANAS are always the LATEST.
ate at sakae. and i still felt full now.
luckily i didn't eat dinner.
think i'll just vomit everything out k.
wanted to watch movie, but didn't in the end.
so the rest went home (to mug?) while diana MY LOVE and me went to walk around heeren.
diana, we managed to spend some quality time alone huh. LOLx.

i really want to buy a new bag kk. but NUM or CRUMPLER?
please feel free to vote k.

gg maddy's house for lunch on mon!
can't wait.
asshole daidee and bridge(((:
MISS YA ALL TRUCKLOADS.
even though i've just seen u all on fri. haha.
mai and sf's like comin to aj?
now i dun feel like leaving can.sigh.
oh our class's gg audrey leo's hse sometime during cny!(:
haha she must be too happy that our class got more than 75% dist in her humans. lol.

i dun feel like gg sch tml k.
but no choice, got PE.
and i'm so guai u know, so i shall not pon.
there's FREAKIN' CHEM LAB tml.
TWO HRS!
i'm just gonna die.
and i'm sure she's giving back the even more freaking chem test.
which i'll undoubtly fail like SHIT.

2007-02-13T21:48:00.000-08:00

i really dunno where i shld go.
hc/vj/aj/nj?
but most probably vj.
then now when i've more or less decided,
i can't find my password to log inxD

2007-02-12T21:30:00.000-08:00

okay my mood's better now. and since i'm bored, i shall blog more.

hehh. my sch did quite gd for o levels this yr.
yayys.
before Os, the teachers were all like, u all get better psle grades than ur snrs, so u have the ability to do better than them, and u must do better then them.
but we were like, the snrs were so hardworking and so gd, how can we ever beat them lor?
and we tot the tchers were siao.
but omg, we did it!
and hopefully, the juniors will do better than us also.
so crescent will be better and better(:
and always remain in band 1(:

our class got the most improved from mid yrs to Os. yayys.
i help them improve by 29 points, they shld thank me k. hahaha/:
and there's like 80 over 6 pointers. wahlao they so gd can.
charlene say i'll get the whatever silver award thingy. dunno if it's true ornot la. but anws. yayyay. lolx.

i miss crescent loads.
aj is like, cannot compare to crescent la.
in terms of environment, teachers, culture, whateverr. esp teachers.
even uniform k.
although somebody says i'm banana. hmphhh.

the day when we must part,
may crescent remain in our hearts.

2007-02-12T21:19:00.000-08:00

went to crash hci and nj today.
with bobby, nicholas, joan, tg, yufei and qiqi.
was supposed to meet nic and yufei at cck.
but woke up late, so it's too late.
stupid alarm clock never ring can, or maybe i didn't hear.
haha nearly get caught in nj.
xia si ren.

the tcher: woah i have new students?
qiqi:...
me:...
the tcher: ur not from my class right?
qiqi:...
me:...
the tcher: where r u from?
qiqi: ehh we're late, so cannot get to our class in time. then we just stood here.
the tcher: oh then now u can go back to ur class.

then the both of us took our bags and anyhow go to other classes.
not fair lah, bobby they all never get caught.

nj's like, quite dead.
the toilet's scary too.
and i dun like the pe shirt and shorts.
so red, like team singapore/: haha.
it's super hot there too.
saw nengzi in hci,
but when i wanted to go say hello, she's gone!
aiyah so ke si can.
so long never talk le.
then after tt wanted to watch movie,
but in the end just walk walk and talk talk. haha.

haiyah i dunno what schs to choose lahh!

they are so damn damn damn irritating.
complain and complain and complain.
especially her.
i'm super pissed off now can, and super irritated.

2007-02-10T00:26:00.000-08:00

i got 8-4=4 for L1R5.
eng--A2
chi--A1
higher chi--A1
math--A2
a math--A2
bio--E8
chem/phy--A1
lit--A1
hist/ss--A1

stupid biology spoil my whole cert lah):
shld have dropped the subject.
i dunno why i'm nt afraid when getting results. lol.
and initially, i'm very very happy when i see the 8.
but then, somehow my happiness ebbed away.
and now i'm seriously depressed.
cos so many pple got 6 pts.
but nt me):
actually, 8 shld be gd for me le.
since i'm so lousy in my studies.
i got 37 for mid yrs leh! dun faint when u read this.
but i dunno why i'm so sad now.
think i need nicholas to transfer some of his happiness to me.
ehh, thru radiation?

went out with bobby, nic, joan, tg, yufei today(:
to town.my third home. lol.
was supposed to go meet bobby.
then somehow joan came, then tg, then nic and yf. hahaha.
so impromtu. like always. haha.
took neoprints w the ugly pimple in my face)):
and saw many crescentians.
we went yoshi again.
i swear i'm nt gg there anymore.
dun like the food thereXD
and i always end up not eating the veggie and rice.
after that went starbucks to play cards. haha.
then i knocked into some dunno what tt obstruct my way when gg home XD.
tskkkkkkk.
my leg's painful lor.
and when we get into mrt, i nearly fell when the train moved.
must be some retribution cos i always ehhh... talk a lot of not-very-gd things.
luckily nic was there.
THANKS A LOT!(:

anw daddy promised to buy an ipod and laptop for me if i get single digit!
then now, he said he'll give me his laptop cos he seldom use it.
hmphhh.
dun want then give me lor.
hahaha.
got company dinner tml.
and cny's comin, so we got HOLIDAYS!
and ANGBAOS!
can't wait.

2007-02-08T20:23:00.000-08:00

[kx] says:
my reg no is 29 lor, wtfh.
dopey (: says:
mine 31 leh
Right. says:
Hey hey, my register is 2 !
Right. says:
Woots woots !
Right. says:
& charlene's 3 !
[kx] says:
tskk, showoff!
Right. says:
Woots woots !
Right. says:
Haha your can see us receive our results first, haha.
Right. says:
Wahlaocan quickly have the burden off my back man.
dopey (: says:
haha
dopey (: says:
skali kx and me get before you all
dopey (: says:
coz we TOP students
[cc] the fear of living for nothing strangles the will says:
WTH
Right. says:
WAHLAO !
Right. says:
Show off la you tsktsk.
[kx] says:
HAHA YA HOR! hahaha
[cc] the fear of living for nothing strangles the will says:
think they'll put sec one photo right.
dopey (: says:
what sec one photo
[cc] the fear of living for nothing strangles the will says:
for top student i guess
dopey (: says:
where got
[cc] the fear of living for nothing strangles the will says:
u know they announce the name and stuff
[kx] says:
AIYAH MAI, OUR SEC ONE PHOTO QUITE OKAY LA HOR? haha.
[cc] the fear of living for nothing strangles the will says:
WTH
dopey (: says:
so
dopey (: says:
they wont put the photo wad
dopey (: says:
i like my sec one photo
[kx] says:
why?
dopey (: says:
i look matured and fierce
dopey (: says:
haha
[kx] says:
OH THEN GD. lol
[cc] the fear of living for nothing strangles the will says:
tsktsk

i juist think tt this is funneh.

2007-02-08T18:38:00.000-08:00

hk pics. i know i'm slow. but ya.

2007-02-08T15:56:00.000-08:00

i still dunno whether i shld go for choir later or not.
sian leh.
think i'll go for hockey or air rifle trial after PAE.
that is, if i got into aj lahh.
choir's too time consuming.
4 times a wk lor.

i wan to go town and buy bag.
but no one's gg today. sigh.
maybe i'll go buy tml.
if my result's gd.
cos gotta take mrt from town anw.
results better be gd lor.
or else i think i'll commit suicide.
omg shit i'm super super damn scared now.
dunno why, but my heart's thumping real hard now.

watched the dancefloor ytd, but no xiaozhu leh.
think i see the wrong ad. weird lah.
anw i can finally watch yu le bai fen bai today(:
if i dun go for choir la.

anw check this out.
True Colours.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I1QJIGI0Ljg
it's my song. lol.
But I see your true colors shining through. I see your true colors...

2007-02-06T20:39:00.000-08:00

release of o lvl results on fri.
shit lah.
i dun want to get the results lor.
but i'm still not scared. YET.
and i have no idea why.

i got 16/20 for econs test!
oh yays(:
okay that's nt very gd la.
but gd enough for me.
cos i didn't study.
some scholar from india got 18 la. tskk.
so high lor.

anw, tmr got the dancefloor.
there's xiao zhu as guest(:
must go watch.
hopefully choir ends early.
cos the show starts at 8.

ewwww.
yuck yuck yuck.
that biatch.
no need to act friendly lahh, attention-seeker.
i dun want to talk to u. so go away.

2007-02-04T23:00:00.000-08:00

oh yays darren won!((:

2007-02-03T22:24:00.000-08:00

oh yays(:
GD NEWS OF THE WK.
crescent rc got SECOND in fd com for district.
and they got into the TOP EIGHT!
oh yay oh yay oh yay.
chishan and company's so lihai lah.
it's the first time crcy got such gd results.
congrats(:
nvm they'll get into first in district next yr.
muahahaha.

2007-01-24T19:43:00.000-08:00

it's 'eat vegetables' day at aj today.
lol.
and there's this fair in hall selling sporting items.
bought 2 pairs of nike socks.
it's cheaper lahh.
and i really suspect that bobby's backbone's not made of bones. lol.

anw diana finally come to sch today.
heh.

me: ya about the...
diana: u got a pad?
nicholas: wahlao, talk about this kind of things.
me: haha i don't have. use the errr, can insert inside de... i forgot what is it called. the one in 'she's the man'.
nicholas: the nose de issit? tampon la. how come i know and u all don't?!
and again diana ask: so u got pad?
nicholas: i go le lah. u all talk about this kind of things!
and seeing tt sb look so blur, i ask: u know what we talking abt ornot?
sb: ya, talking about PETS that u all have right?

i think i'm very fortunate tt i didn't vomit blood and die.

the history of cold war's repeating itself.

2007-01-22T05:32:00.000-08:00

wanted to upload the photos on the steamboat day.
but can't find the stupid usb thingy.
so shall blog.

today's as uneventful as any other days.
so many tutorials can.
i think gp's the most boring of all.
one girl in my class laid her head on the table.
and the tutor was like,
'my lesson can't be tt boring right?'
but the ironic thing is tt, it really was THAT boring.
and the speed she speak is like super slow.
like 10 words/min?
okay i'm exaggerating.
but ya get the point alright.
during chem i was blur blur la.
my chem concept is like really lousy.
i hate it when i dun know how to do the tutorials la.
and when i dun really understand what the teachers teaches.
sighh.
everyone else seems so clever lor.
except me. lol.
dunno why i always last min la.
in crescent also.
think mr loh knows it best.
i still owe him loads of hw.
think theres' more than 10 sets la.
okay i shall change my bad habit in jc. hahaha.
and the BAD NEWS of the wk is that there's math test this fri.
i'm so unprepared for it la.
and the tutor expect us to get FULL MARKS?!!!
siao la.
if i pass, i'll jump for joy liao.

2007-01-19T22:30:00.000-08:00

back from aj,
was ultra tired lahh.
movie fest 1 today.
watched she's the man, john tucker must die and devil wears prada(((:
FOR FREE! hahaha.
anw the first two's nice nice nice!(:
the last one also okay la.

had gp during civics lesson today.
was super sian lahh.
the teacher speak really really really very slowly.
and i have no idea why.
maybe must pronounce every word properly la.
and my class was like, not sociable.
okay la, not all.
just some pple.
but they were all so enthu during the class committee selection thingy.
i just felt tt it's too weird to nominate urself lor.
hahaha.

traka outing tml.
dunno whether i shld go for bowling or mtg lehh.

2007-01-17T19:10:00.000-08:00

attempting to be scary?

??????
who's the mystery guy? hoho.

2007-01-17T19:00:00.000-08:00

illegal gathering.
stinky socks!
posing as leehom. lol.
pillow buddha.
whatcha looking at?
ohhh.

2007-01-17T18:55:00.000-08:00

snore.
aiyah wake up le.
I just realise how yellow i am in a sea of blue. urghhhh! so heavy! but yufei seems to like to carry heavy stuff. weird!
1,2,3,4,5,6!

2007-01-17T18:50:00.000-08:00

ehh dunno what they doing lahh.
is tt supposed to be the 'act cool' pose? hahaha. nic looked like he got stomachache.
omg what's tg doing? lol.
"wahh i never realise u got such a nice..."
"omg i just got kissed!" muack muack!" oh no! stop taking photos. dun leak our secret out!"

hahaha. gals (and guys) out there. they're not really tgt lahh. so dun be dissappointed!

2007-01-17T18:45:00.000-08:00

heh, yufei the buddha !
i'm really jealous of the baby's big eyes and nice nice skin lor.
look alike right? lol. but the stupid flower's blocking lahh.
traka!

2007-01-17T18:40:00.000-08:00

"death note". obviously this movie dun have enough funds to produce lah. lol. still have to use the back of a bk. hoho.

aiyoyo nicholas. one leg step 3 boats. haha.
endorsing milo. and the irony is tt neither packet were drunk by them.

look out for nostril/armpit hair!

2007-01-17T18:35:00.000-08:00

HELLO.
back from choir.
so tired can. yawns.
anw today's the last day tt we had our lessons tgt as an og.
so sad lahh.
why must separate into classes so soon lor. sighh.
feel like joining hockey as recreational activity leh.
but think i'll die frm exhaustion soon.
so ya.
anw here are the pics for today.
rmb to thank me for uploading despite my tiredness hor. hahaha.
oh anw nicholas, sorry for you-know-what today. haha.

2007-01-16T15:15:00.000-08:00

guess who???ANS?
AND
NOT the blue shirt one hor. anw, the pics r not taken by me. hoho.
tsk tsk. using phone in lib. hor.
wahh. someone's so hardworking.
who's geraldine looking at?-winks

the siao za bos. hahaha.

yayys sch ends early today.
so happy(:
but tonnes of hw to be done.
i'm gonna be drown in a mountain of papers can.
sighh.

2007-01-16T04:46:00.000-08:00

syeyuet, here u go(: sy finally opened her eyes in this pic! i was beginning to think she was afraid of the light or something. lol.

2007-01-14T03:46:00.000-08:00

6K'02 pple in AJ(:
thnks to florence((:

2007-01-14T00:42:00.000-08:00

found this. GRAD NIGHT '06. class 4S2((:

2007-01-14T00:04:00.000-08:00

choir or band?
band or choir?

the more i think of it,
the more i want to kill myself.
in the same class leh.
how?
wth lah.
i dun feel like remaining in aj now.
if can change.

2007-01-13T15:37:00.000-08:00

2007-01-12T21:27:00.000-08:00

kaixian is a happy girl today!((((:
went back to crescent for cca day.
saw mr loh, mdm zhang, mdm kwan, ms azilah mrs wong...
really really really really really really really miss crescent a lot lot lot!
it's the best sch ever.
really feels at home there.
kinda feels like my room.
dun think i'll ever get into a sch like tt again.
i miss the healthy canteen food.
i miss the classrooms.
i miss the teachers.
and i even miss the mass runs.
and most of all, the mini forum,
where the sillies spent abt 2.5 yrs after sch twice every wk, preparing for rc activities.
arranging bottles, tucking in shirts, practising footdrill...
shit.
i wanna cry le. hahaha.
the more i think, the sadder i become la.
so shall not think le.
anw 2/3 of the squad was there!
wx, cc, mas, mai, yy, pet, hjuan and me! haha.
joanne ma'am look really smart in uni.
and chishan in the red blood drop's soo cute la. -waves
went our with my sillies after cca day.
to tiong.
so long nv go there le.
ate at macs and went home.

mr loh, looking at char: you are ehh... start with 'C' right? eh i know second letter is h...
mai: ya her name's CHAR CHAR! haha.
me: no no, charsiew lah.
char: *sigh*
yy: it's charlene.
mr loh, pausing for 5 secs: oh yes right. u r charlene. yes yes...

LOL. stephen's so cute la.
blur blur one.
he remembers my name leh! heh.
maybe cos i always owe him homework.
hahaha.

bad news of the day.
someone's in my class.
yuck yuck.
i'm so unlucky.
if we r spending 2 yrs tgt, i dunno how to survive.

we...shall not be moved.
we from red cross, we shall not be moved.
we from red cross, we shall not be moved,
just like the tree by the waterside.
we shall not be moved.
red cross! red cross!
all the way!
we like it here, we like it here,
we found ourselves a home!
a home sweet home!
ay....red cross!

I HEART CRESCENT!

2007-01-09T17:54:00.000-08:00

damn.
i seriously dunno what'd happened to my face.
pimples suddenly pop out overnight.
and now it's bleeding too!!!
SOBBSSS.
today was already very ugly.
and tmr would be worse.
sigh.
now, my already not-nice face had turned worse lahh.
guess i gotta bring a mask 2 sch tmr. haha.
sigh sigh sigh.
where's my nice skin in pri sch???

2007-01-09T17:15:00.000-08:00

back from J8.
went there from AJ all the way there for a mos milkshake.
hahaha.
but it's with my OG mates.
so of course it's worth it!
anw today was kinda boring.
math, phy, pe talk, and something else which i forgot.
ohh science.
dunno whether half of what was said was processed by my brain ornot.
was so sleepy la.
guess i gotta revise later.
sian k.
the J1s there are like all very clever and hardworking.
i'm damn scared lah.

anw i'm gg back crescent on fri CCA day((:
miss my SILLIES loads loads loads.
and teachers too.
bet wx is jumping for joy cos she can see her mr loh.
haha can go back and consult jc math.
and tt reminds me.
i still dunno what CCA to join.
and gotta make a decision my tmr.
tt's like 30 hrs away only.
sighh.

2007-01-07T23:03:00.000-08:00

fuck fuck fuck.
i lost my phone at TM just now.
again.
it's the second time now.
and i really hate myself for being so careless and so stupid.
sigh.
whoever took my phone can go to hell la.

BUT.
i realise how nice the flint pple are.
sam, angela, hysen, xinyi, huimin, benjamin, zhenwei, weikang, koksheng, the guy who's a superb guitarist. and some others.
really sorry.
think i got some mental block now.
and can't rmb many of the names.
and sorry if i missed u out.
thanks a LOT LOT LOT.
i really owe u all.
so sry tt u all had to go back later.
i guess ur friendship is the most impt after all.
so i'm not so sad after losing my phone.
cos i still have u all.

haha i'm starting to sound mushy.
but i've to say this b4 i forgot.
even though u all might not read this.
shall go to sleep now, or i'll become a panda tmr.

2007-01-06T13:51:00.000-08:00

it's the weekend! yayys.
orientation at aj was okay.
but so short!
3 days only.
nj got night dance and bbq, and maddy said they r having games for another wk.
pj's orientation's until next tue.
NOT FAIR!
lessons wld start on mon.
lectures all that. sighs.
i was expecting to play play for the first 1 and 1/2 mths lor.
didn't expect it to be like that. haha.
aj's principal was like, the first 3 mths's not honeymoon time, cos jc life is short.
which was true la.
but i prefer tp's principal who said that first 3 mths is to have fun.
haha aj's so kiasu.
kinda like crescent.
which is good i guess.

sigh.
i really really really miss crescent a LOT LOT LOT!!
all my frens there, all my sillies, all the teachers!
and even my classroom.
when pple sang birthday song in aj, i was reminded of the crescent version of birthday song.
which was nicer and more creative than the normal one of course(:

hopefully i'll adapt to the environment quickly.
still not used to having guys in sch la.
didn't really talk to them much.
stick with the gals instead. haha.
and i really dunno whether to take chi or not.
but it's too late lah.
the registration period was over.

anw thanks to traka for making my first 3 days in aj so fun(:
esp the OGLs.
though u all would'nt see this,
but i just want to say this la(:

hopefully i can go back to crescent on cca day(:

2006-12-27T00:10:00.000-08:00

sighh.
gary tan's leaving.
and leonard's gonna take his place as vp.
lucky seh.
if i were still there, i wld be so dead man.
results nt gd then my dad had to meet him.
GOSHH.
i can't imagine tt.
tt wld be so awkard lahh.
cos they r so close.
heng.

watched night at the museum ytd.
and eragon today.
i'm so broke now.
both are NICE NICE NICE!
2 of the best i watch this yr.
2 out of 4 lah haha.
i only watched 4 movies this yr.
crescentians really love town.
saw like, 9 today.
and yay sch's gonna reopen next wk.
so tt means i wld have my allowance back. HOORAY!!
and we can wear crescent uniform for the first i and half mths.
double yayys((:

2006-12-23T14:58:00.000-08:00

i want to watch MOVIES!
1) curse of the golden flower
2) night at the museum
3) eragon
4) death note 2 ( haven't even watch the first one yet.)
5) confession of pain (cuz of takeshi kaneshiro lahh((:)
6) charlotte's web

i'm really gg to die at home.
but it's raining everyday.
so ma fan to go out also. sigh.

2006-12-23T14:39:00.000-08:00

came back from hk on the 21st.
was fun lahh.
but the shopping was so short.
and boring.
going out with so many pple's really not fun at all.
my parents dun even allow me to walk around on my own.
sigh.
anw the things there are CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP!
i mean shenzhen lahh.
lady's street in hk also.( i dunno if it's lady's street OR women's street la.)
the bargaining was so fun. haha.
but it's such a pity tt i dun know cantonese.
shall learn and go there again next time.(((:

i'm super pissed off at someone.
so young and is already such a bitch.
i always don't like her.
but now, congrats, u've entered my HATE LIST.
i'm going to dao her forever man.
her parents and bro are nice though.
it's just her.
and i think she knows already.
bitch.

2006-12-15T21:15:00.000-08:00

ohh yay i've changed my skin.
now it's not pinkish anymore(:
going hk tmr!((:
but for only 5 days/:

2006-12-14T18:19:00.000-08:00

i've deleted the earlier post to avoid any conflicts. hahaha.
heh. i got into ajc, same as charlene. yayys.
so there's someone to accompany me now.
and the sch's so near my hse.
can wake up late((:
gg hk on the 16th.
can't wait man.

ahhahaa. sf just told me that maddy lost the tix to wild wild wet and they cant go ytd in the end.
then she found the tix today.
haha oh man.
i was like, OMG OMG OMG OMG!
so blur lah maddy.
sigh. i miss crescent already.
the stuff there, the pple there.
dun think i'll ever get into a sch better than her.
crescent is a female right?? haha.

2006-11-29T23:24:00.000-08:00

i'm so happy to see my bro struggling to prepare for his ncc camp! haha.
sadistic i know.
but can't help it lah.
remembering it was ME who had to do that for 3 years.
solid fuel and mass tins and stuff.
and my bro didnt struggle actually.
in fact he can't be bothered.
think zhonghua's ncc's not that strict bah.
he still wanted to find an excuse to leave one day earlier. tsk.
not guai like me! lol.
i've been so afaid of rc training camps last time, and now when i recall i feel so stupid.
i dont even know what i was so afraid of.

2006-11-29T22:59:00.000-08:00

i'm bored now.
so shall blog about grad night.

grad night. 24 nov 2006
heh. tried out so many dresses.
in the end so sick and tired tt i just wore the old dress i had worn to my cousin's wedding.
makeup and hair at 4 plus at the salon near my hse.
and then i really dun feel like gg anymore.
but already paid 65 bucks.
so no choice lah.
i dun understand why is it so ex.
the hotel was better than expected.
everyone was like complaining tt the hotel was not in town.
but it's nice(:
and everyone's dressed really nice.
but nice looks, unladylike moves.
we still need training on being a lady and leader of tomorrow.
and i HATE heels.
when i first entered the lift.
my right heel got stuck in the hole at the entrance.
scared the hell out of me can.
and there's so many pple around somemore.
the food's okay.
but the dessert's gross.
it's some kind of peanut soup.
the person beside me (i think it's priscilla) were like grimacing at each other.
we were the only two left at the table, others had gone to dunno where.
overall grad night was quite fun lah.
and our table won a $10 heeren voucher!
although it's too little to buy anything, it's better than nothing.

shall upload the pics next time, when i feel like it.
but i hope that some kind soul can help me upload it(:

can't wait for the hk trip!

2006-11-27T23:22:00.000-08:00

heh.
so bored now tt i've been watching dvds everyday.
just finish watching devil beside me ytd.
it's sooo nice!
everyone shld go watch it lah.
regardless of race, language or religion.haha.
omigosh mike He's so damn cute lor.
even cuter than yul.
and weixue,
i really didn't watch the last episode of goong leh.

2006-11-20T19:00:00.000-08:00

Os finally ended! heh.
and now i really feel VERY VERY VERY VERY bored.
so sian k. nothing to do.;
i shall go take up some new courses(:

2006-11-17T23:03:00.000-08:00

heh. i'm sooo HAPPY today.
history is FINALLY over.
left with one more subject only.
and it's just MCQ, each question having 1/4 probability of being correct((:
but must get 40/40 la. cuz the phy paper sucks.
and i screwed up my lit joy luck club paper also. sigh. apparently i interpret the first question wrongly.
other people all ended le.
but i shall console myself by telling myself that i have more time to study so i'll do better. hoho.
dun feel like studying can. how? haix shall study tmr.
yay finally collecting my contacts on mon. no need to wear specs le!(:
grad night on 24th. i think.
dun feel like gg leh.
so sian can. havent buy all da stuff yet.
mon hurry up arrive. i cant wait to end my Os.

2006-10-13T21:21:00.000-07:00

graduation today!
videos and prize giving and speeches.
after i've graduated, i then realised how great crescent truly is.
all the dedicated teachers, students, and every corner of the sch.
esp the teachers.
i have a feeling that there's no other place like crescent or even close to crescent.
sigh.
it's the first time i truly open my mouth to sing the sch song.
really cant believe 4 yrs passed by so quickly.
i'll definitely miss everyone and everything.

2006-08-13T23:00:00.000-07:00

oh man.
o level eng oral on 23o890.
next week! wth.
i'm so scared)):

haix.
poured water all over my chi compo just now when i was reaching for the phone.
didnt see the huge cup in the way.
and have to wait for it to dry to continue. lol.

yayys i'm turning sixteen tmr.
finally.
which means prelims is very very near.
ha can watch nc16 movies. whatever.
no time also lah.
and wx is so bo liao.
count down for me since wed (i think)
thanks anw.
that means how important i am to you. loll.
dun worry ur b'day's coming soon too.
it's in 1729 hours. (dunno if accurate or not)
i juz realise it's on hari raya.
happy WAITING(:
haha i'm so evil.

gotta go do my zuo wen now.
bye bye --waves. loll.

2006-08-06T22:08:00.000-07:00

damn pissed off last fri.
was late for sch in e morning.
for 2 mins only lah.
didnt get booked.
then some stupid councillor who's stationed at the staircase escort me to the auditorium.
dunno for what also.
i'm not considered late.
then i had to stand outside the hall cuz i couldnt get in in time as she's running too slow and block my way.
ass.
then she ask me to stand at the doors.
and asked if i've been booked.
then i said ya.
cuz i thought she ask whether i've been booked before for being late.
lol.
still ask me to stand at the door lor.
cant she see we have mass dance?
asshole.
lydia ans a bunch of china scholars were late too.
and when i ask why they need not stand at the door, she said MAYBE there're not late but come from class late.
STUPID ASS.
who carry their bags and run to the hall if they r not late?
dunno how she become a councillor also.
so irresponsible and unfair.
tskkk.
hope she's not in the committee or smthing.

dunno why i waste the whole post on some stupid girl also.
nvm.
e math and phy test tmr.
gotta go learn.
prelims coming too. groanss.
first ACTUAL paper on 30 aug. eng.
cme on 29 aug.
guess that's not counted lah.
i shall get the most improved award. loll.
others cant get that cuz their L1R5 arent as high as me.
mine is way high up. sighs.
anw got 2 hols and 1 half day this wk.
YAYYYYYYYYSSSSS.
i luv singapore. lol.

2006-07-29T19:57:00.000-07:00

speech day yesterday.
it was so loonnggg.
sat until my butt hurts la.
and the prize winners and speeches were never ending):
luckily stella ng's speech was interesting.
it doesn't sound like a speech. heh.
AAD after that.
boring like previous yrs except the performances.
screwed up the mass dance. lol.

2006-06-29T19:14:00.000-07:00

Thank you
Joanne Ma'am for the presents.
Sec threes for the memorable and fun activity today, presents and cake (with outlined emblem. lol. hash?)
Sec twos for the touching video.
All juniors for the unforgettable memories in all these years in rc.
and last but not least
MY SQUADMATES! we had gone through thick and thin together these 3 and 1/2 years. thanks for being there.

we've stepped down.
is tt supposed to be a happy or sad thing?
i dunno.

anyway i can't believe it.
time passed so fast.
A year as NCOs is over.
unbelievable.
i feel really sad la.
footdrill. evacuation. rck. first aid.
there'll be no more of all these)):

sec ones'03
we were blur like sotong la.
and the no. of pple kept decreasing.
rmbed we had to pump for almost every activity.
esp when there's footdrill.
everyone's so scared tt few turned up when there's footdrill. haha.
our legs are always not 90 degrees.
so get to know the term 'kiss the wall'.
GL senior introduced that. haha.
until now, we still dun know what that means. lol.
it just scared us when we were sec ones.
everyone seemed to be so afraid.
and now i dunno why we're so scared.
maybe that bonded us together.

sec twos'04
there were only fourteen of us by then.
no one quitted after that.
learnt many more new stuff.
we still hated footdrill. haha.
it's the most tiring and scary subject. lol.
that's why i dunno why i loved footdrill after that.haha.

sec threes'05
seniors among the cadets then.
and shimin left us to another sch at the end of sec two):
can't remember much.

sec fours'o6
o level year.
there's a change of VI to Joanne Ma'am((:
we got the gold award for both EUA and community service.
yayys(: haha.
i didn't know that it's the first time crescent got gold until today when mrs yip told us.
and a new teacher is joining mrs yip as teacher-in-charge.
urghh.
i think many for us will be slapping ourselves for being sec fours this year and had stepped down. lolx.
shall not explain why. haha.

sigh.
can't remember much now.
got mental blockage la.
all i know is tt i haven't finish my chinese hw.
which we must pass up tmr. haix.

SILLIES
i'll never forget the times we shared together.
all the happy and sad memories.
and what we had gone through together.
we'll always remain squadmates till the day we die (so dramatic. lolx.)
love all of you. muacks((:
anyway gd luck for ur MT o level oral(:

CRESCENT RC rawks our thin socks and we'll get gold for eua and csa every yr(:

madeline; bertha; charlene; weixue; hashviniya; huijuan; shufen; yingyi; maisarah; farrah; masliana; petrina; shimin; kaixian

2006-06-24T08:29:00.000-07:00

just spent over hundred bucks yesterday.
my parent's money of course.
yay got a new pair of shoes shirt and skipping rope.
haha thanks.
called sea cucumber at 11 plus at nite.
thought would only chat for a while.
in the end got a conference.
da jie da zj, da jie hm, er jie sam, ah girl fel, tai tai angela, ah boy sea cucumber, and san jie me(((:
then everyone went off.
left angela sea ccb and me only.
and we talked till 4 plus!!!
gosh, now i still think i'm crazy. haha.
we talk about everything in the entire world lor.
then woke up at 7.10am.
got to learn the mass dance for milk run.
dun even noe what's that lor.
then meet sam they all.
wanted to go macs for breakfast(((:
ended up in 7 eleven eating cup noodles la)):
hahahaaa.
went to zouk's carpark to practice.
and the sun's so scorching hot. tsk.
at least it's not raining.
haha but nvm.
at least saw this really cute guy.
even da jie da agrees.
then got mtg at tbsc frm 3-6.
so tiring.
shit!
and i still have loads of hw not done!!!
just remembered!
whaddahell.
wanted to finish all in the second wk.
but ya.
sighs.
i'm so dead. ok nvm.
oh ya now my demerits's back to ZERO. yayyysss.
so scared i'll do detention la.
but that CHEW WEIXUE auntie shld be more scared la. haha.
no CHEW WX is a babe.
she likes to be called that.
okay i think i'm typing shit la.
this is my longest post ever.
shall go off now(:

2006-06-20T21:54:00.000-07:00

i'm so fucking irritated.
they're so fucking irritating.

i dunno why.
but when your sad, disappointed.
i feel so elated. i find it amusing.
it's as if i've achieved something.
you turn me into a heartless bitch.
cold heartless bitch.
it's all ur fault.

you kept criticising me
scolding me.
it became part of me.
and i feel nothing now.
i can't even feel sad anymore.
no matter how hard you tried.

i don't know what to do anymore.
hit me more.
scold me more.
it feels so...nice?
i dunno.
i think i'm becoming insane.
when i'm stuck here.

i'm fucking fustrated now.

2006-05-29T15:52:00.000-07:00

had been sick for the last few days.
fever+sore throat+flu+cough.
39.1 degrees la.
luckily i'm not taking chinese o level today.
or else i'm so dead.
dunno how i'm going to take the exam.
heh. i shall go ask others how's the MT paper.
there'll be school from tmr onwards. sighs.
and there's tons of schoolwork.
plus tuition work too.

2006-04-21T06:11:00.000-07:00

prelim oral today.
at first ms azlin is examiner.
then change to ms karen tan.
then mr ravi/:
sigh.
i think i screwed up the whole thing la.
actually the topic is not really very difficult.
it's about some family thing.
but i dunno what to say.